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I’m having an identity Crisis!
(And I don’t mean the one that occurred as my children
transitioned to the public schools while my life’s work of home-education came
to screeching halt.)
As long as I can remember, I have been taught that I am a child of God. I learned it from my parents as we had family
home evening and read from the scriptures.
I learned it in primary as the leaders went to great lengths to plant
those seeds of faith in our young minds.
I learned it as society at large (although subtle, it was still there) had
references to mankind being created in the image of God and through the lineage
of Adam and Eve. I learned it myself as
I received the confirmation from the Holy Spirit whenever I heard these and
other witnesses of this truth. Prophets,
seminary teachers, good neighbors, local ward members. Everywhere is this underlining knowledge that
there is a God and he is my Father.
And to be honest, I thought I believed it.
That is until I realized that maybe I didn’t.
If I truly believed that the great Elohim was my daddy – my
life would be very different. I wouldn’t
have contradictory beliefs that I am not worthy or not enough or not
valuable. I wouldn’t even consider
statements that appear to contradict this (or other divine truths) as carrying
any weight at all. There would be no
addictions or character weaknesses. My
potential wouldn’t be viewed as limited nor would I struggle with scarcity
mentality. My religious experience would
be rich and meaningful, never simply going through the motions. I wouldn’t allow others, or myself, to treat
me with disrespect. My self-talk would be positive, encouraging, and centered
in truth. And I wouldn’t feel trials and
hardships are an injustice being played on me, nor would I ever feel abandoned
or alone.
Some might say that is simply part of the earthly, mortal
experience. I say it is simply a
by-product of my lack of faith. No wonder the Savior said “Oh ye of little
Faith”. I have had faith to receive the
witness of this truth and faith to profess it myself though maybe not enough
faith to carry it over into application internally.
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My daddy IS the Great King and father of all Creation. I AM worthy. I AM enough.
I AM priceless. My needs are met
(no need for addiction) and I live a principled and virtuous life. I have limitless potential and thrive in
abundance. I connect and am aligned with
my daddy’s will, my Savior’s atonement, and my family’s hearts. I embrace growth opportunities to become like
him and I know He is always there.
I’m confident that as I choose to increase my faith in this
truth – I AM A CHILD OF GOD and increase my understanding of the nature of God
as well as my own true eternal nature, then my identity crisis will be over and
I can apply what I know to be true.
