Showing posts with label Return and Report. Show all posts
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Monday, March 3, 2014

My Victory Formula

It was one of those moments.  I'm sitting there listening to the class being presented when my mind is flooded with word phrases and ideas that seem too profound to just ignore.  I grabbed my portable device and started my finger sliding over the touchscreen keyboard.

Yes, I was probably inspired from the previous class that was on the atonement, and so it may have been the trigger that got my brain working.  But this is what I came up with:

     1.  Access the Atonement
     2.  Gratitude for the Vision
     3.  Meet the Minimum

ACCESS THE ATONEMENT
     All around us, people are building their own Tower of Babels.  Attempting to gain access to something that has only one possible entrance.  Whether it is climbing the ladder of success, setting goals with frequent course corrections, positive mental attitude, working harder or smarter, requesting from the 'universe', or any number of other partial power sources that beat around the bush without hitting the target head on.  

However, the atonement of Christ has genuine power - healing power, purifying power, saving power, redeeming power.  But the power that gets most overlooked is the enabling power.  Why would anyone attempt to be successful without accessing the power which increases their capacities.  

And all that is required to access this pure genuine power is to sacrifice our selfish pride.  Recognizing that we are not enough alone and laying our burden at His feet.  Repenting of the sins we've committed or the good works we've omitted.  Humbly seeking his aid and then submitting to his will, especially if it is contrary to our own.  Receiving His word through pondering, reflecting, and personalizing His teachings in our lives.  

Granted, it is not an easy step, but who ever claimed victory to be an easy process.  

GRATITUDE FOR THE VISION

Vision indicating our vision manifested as well as the vision we hope to create.

Our life's circumstances are the consequences of past choices or . . . opportunities for growth.  What we are experiencing right now is either God's manifestation of respect for our agency (even if it was a poor choice on our part) or a manifestation of His trust in our ability to grow beyond our current status.  Keeping that perspective helps me to be grateful for where I am, even when where I am is sometimes unpleasant.

Being grateful for what will come into our life is an expression of faith that God honors our heart's desire and . . . if it is right for us, will provide for our needs.  Sometimes in unexpected or miraculous ways, but I trust that he loves me enough to create the circumstances that are in my best interest.

MEET THE MINIMUM
There is too much to do in a single day.  There is too many good things to successfully prioritize based on that merit alone.  So when I say meet the minimum, take it with tongue and cheek because it is the goal, not the mandate.  It is the 1% principle.  It is the consistency effort of small and simple things.  It is the default when life allows these items to be attended to between crisis or unrelenting schedules.  

Since there is too much to do, especially with children, I like to pray that the most important items will get the proper amount of attention.  That may change from day to day.  One day, relationships may need to be strengthened as a high priority.  Another, it might be more important to put my home, my health, or my finances in order. 

These seven areas are my personal pursuits that require my time and attention in order to maintain as well as progress.  They are:
     1- Physical Activity
            This could be anything from working up a sweat or getting my own drink of water rather than being lazy and asking someone else to do it.
     2- Home Stewardship
            Daily maintaining is essential for my mental health, plus meals and laundry never cease
     3- Study 
            Come face to face with greatness, practice pondering, listening to audiobooks while busy
     4- LOVE
             Strengthening relationships by loving God, spouse, children, friends.
     5- Manage the Money
              Know where my money is, where it is going, and what I want it to do for me.
     6- Be a Force for Good
              This phrase resonates so strong with me that I know this is a deep inner desire.  As long as I keep the desire before me, I hope that I will be able to influence someone in a positive manner.
     7- Mission Momentums
              Momentums are the baby steps that get the ball rolling.  Once in motion, it tends to stay in motion, so I want to regularly do the babystep momentums that that will help me fulfill my life's mission.

There it is.  My Victory Formula.  Even if it doesn't produce the goals or material success that I perceive as necessary in my life, I know I will experience inner peace by focusing on these three things.  And inner peace is truly a Victory. 


Monday, December 12, 2011

Counting My Blessings

This last week has been terribly challenging for me emotionally.  I've run the gammit of high's and lows and I realized that I was stuck on a low for way too long.  So I decided right then to put to the test the challenge to count your blessings when down.  Of course that decision was several days ago and I've been trying to make time to write everyday since, but better late then never, right.  This may be a little bit of a challenge for me until my mind opens and allows goodness to come out again, but I've got to stop the venom of self pity and feelings of failure from doing anymore damage to myself, my children, my sweet husband, or any others. 

1- Since today is Sunday, and this is most pressing on my thoughts right now, I'll begin with the fact that I was released from my teaching position in the Relief Society (that's not what I'm calling a blessing because I loved that calling and it caused me to grow so much), but I immediately was extended a new calling that...well, quite frankly...scares me to death.  I'm counting it as a blessing because, oh boy, is it ever going to make me grow and develop in ways that I wouldn't have pursued on my own.  I can't go into any details at this point, but I think I'd probably be more comfortable with any other calling (minus playing the piano) than this one I just received.  I'm not sure what the Lord saw in me to receive this calling, but it's definately one that I'm not prepared for and will grow from.

2- We will probably get financing fairly soon to buy a house.  YEAH!!!! Unfortunately, I don't think it will be this house.  We've lived here for over 3 years and been perfectly content and intending to purchase when that time came.  So why my (and all of my family members) discontent has been compounded so much lately, I'm not sure other than a message that we are not to buy this house. 
The functional & space inadequacies, frustrations with the distance & expense, and several other issues seems to be so much more important now then it ever has been before.  I'm seeing this as a blessing that we have endured the dysfunction so well for so long (God has made our burden light), and also the hope that we will get into a house that will better meet our needs. 

3- I've received a promise that my infection will be healed.  I've had this infection that is not only uncomfortable and potentially dangerous, it is highly persistent.  I've been to the doctor twice, had 2 dosages of strong antibiotics, has 2 surgeries done to drain it, had to pump and dump as well as train my baby on a bottle, used several herbal, oil, homeopathic remedies to keep it at bay; but still, this infection is alive and strong and building up for another need for surgery.  If it wasn't for the promise in a priesthood blessing and in my own personal revelation, I would be highly discouraged. 

4- I'm healthy by choice and it feels good.  Near the end of my pregnancy, my midwives suggested a fairly restrictive diet.  Normally, I would have had much failure in ability to abide to such a strict food source.  Then shortly after, I felt impressed to cut out all refined sugars from my diet for good.  With that we turned to whole foods - whole wheat, brown rice, honey, etc.  If I were to have tried or even necessitated this eating regime in 2010 - there's no  way possible I would have had the successes I'm experiencing this time around.  The Lord is truely blessing me with the ability to stand firm on this health issue and I'm so grateful because for years it was a terrible weakness almost without hope.  But as in all things, God is my only HOPE.

5- Washington is taking better care of his Diabetes.  We held a fast and invited all who wanted to, to join in our efforts to reach him in his ability to manage his diabetes.  We had many who joined and many helpful suggestions.  The number one most helpful thing has been my sister who offered to participate in twice a week coaching to help him create the habits of health that he is needing.  She has been absolutely amazing and truely an answer to my prayers.  We are still in the beginning stages, but his management has been so much improved, I'm again filled with hope. 

6- My educationally challenging child is finally...finally...making some headway in her education.  For some of my kids, I can find a hot button to - well - manipulate.  Or find a way to inspire them to explore knowledge and truth.  But I have this one child that has always left me feeling clueless and helpless.  I never knew how to help her to create the results that she and I both wanted for her success in this life.  But she has been putting in several long days of intense study, by her own choice, and I'm feeling the burden being lifted in regard to her success.  Of course, time will tell, but things are looking promising.

7- Although my time has been highly pressed, I have had success in two fairly important educational areas for me.  One, I taught the Wheel of Time class this last semester - which caused me to learn lots and prepare presentations (storytelling - not exactly my strong suit) every single week.  I couldn't plan the whole thing in advance and then lose interest half way through like I have in the past.  The other was participating in the Great Books class.  Attempting to study from this every week has been a challenge - yes, but so good for my self-confidence in being able to tackle this difficult of a class. 

8- Aristotle has shall I say - floored me - on several occasions recently with his calm and controlled responses to his children.  After 20 years he's changing on me and it's been fascinating to see him mature and grow spiritually.  He has been treating the kids almost better than I do and it's so refreshing to see his efforts to be on the same page as me, and conquer his natural habit.  I don't feel so alone in raising the kids and I'm really enjoying his genuine desire to do and be better.  I'm so grateful for such an amazing sweet husband and father.

9- I really feel bad that I did such a poor job of filling my shelves with food storage this year due to lack of canning time & resources, but I'm still in shock at the amount that we have gotten done.  We have many pigs that are keeping the freezer full, lots of corn from a contact that let us have it, good produce that can be used for the pigs, and sometimes case lot sales or groceries when we are running a little too lean.  The Lord has blessed us abundantly.

10- Probably my biggest blessing is my family.  I have amazing children who have a strong testimony of the gospel and somehow have not bought into a lot of the deceptive temptations that most teenagers struggle with.  My husband loves and pampers me and works so hard to provide for us.  We are learning and growing together in school as well and life's lessons.  Life is good.

Yep.  It works!  I feel so much more happy and optomistic.  I know good things are ahead as I improve the mistakes from the past.  Counting my blessings - who'd a thought.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Savoring the Scriptures

We have been implementing our new and improved efforts to study the scriptures and I'm so thrilled with the results.

For years I have held morning devotional every day - without my husband.   Finally, I responded to the idea that we should include him - or more likely - encourage him to lead us out.  So in the evenings before saying family prayers, we've undertaken to read the Book of Mormon as a family - reading, discussing, marking, and testifying of its truthfulness.  Whew.  I felt amazing and proud of myself for handing that responsibility over to him.  I'm anxious for his growth as well and the families response to his leadership.  Granted, it is hit and miss due to his hit and miss work schedule but that is the plan in the evenings. 

And so our daily devotional shrunk... dramatically.  I wasn't sure exactly what to do during that time since we turned the family study time to the evenings.  We dabbled a little with scripture master and personal scripture reading for 5 minutes, but basically the substance of our starter was weak and meaningless.  I'd thought and played with the idea of customizing devotional activities for the special day child and had done it a little on Fridays - Joan of Arc's special day.  But the other day, I sat down to brainstorm how to study scriptures without it being simply scripture study and discussion.  How could I approach it so that my children get specialized attention for their needs.  I did a little research, made a master list, and this is what I came up with.

Daily:  Individual Personal Reading from the scriptures for at least 5 minutes.  (I'm hoping to work that up to 30 minutes.  Also, we are taking a conference talk and listening to it, taking notes, discussing. etc.  The neat thing is that when we do the same talk the very next day - it's as if it were a completely different address but we got different notes the next day.  Our intent is to clearly identify what the brethren are counseling us to do and then analyze whether we are doing it and implement an action plan to more completely follow the prophets voice.   This is going to be fun.

Mondays - Doctrines and Principles Day:  This is the day that we choose a doctrine and really get to the depth in research, analyzing what our understanding of the doctrine is and compare that with what the scriptures say.  We identify the underlying principles in a verse.  We analyze the scripture references found in their personal progress/faith in God/ or lessons.  We choose a subject that we've studied and give a talk and bear our testimony on it.  Eventually we will be making scripture journals and compile our faith promoting stories. 

Tuesday - Markings and Values Day:  This is the day that we learn how to mark our sciptures, not just the scripture mastery or meaningful scriptures, but putting titles on the top of the page, sectionalizing the entire chapter, color-coding, recording insights, stickers, and cross-reference notes.  We practice the rule of three (reading a verse or selection three times - recording more insight with each reading).  This is also the day that we recite our family value for the month and the scripture we have  chosen to represent it.  We find examples in the scriptures of that value being exhibited and then we find examples of ourselves exhibiting that value. 

Wednesday - Scripture Master & Hero Day:  Wednesday is our day away from home so we will use the travel time to memorize our scripture mastery.  Using a combination of flashcards, repetition, fill in the blank, first letters, and scrambled words.  We also are doing a combined Hero Study to make the people in the scriptures come alive and personal to each of us.  We've chosen to start with Esther and will not only do a biography study but compare her character with our time lifestyle choices (media, Sabbath, Friends, gospel principle application, etc.) 

Thursday - Storied Scripture Day:  This is the time that I read directly from the scriptures the account of a particular story, and while I read, each child is creating a story book - drawing and writing a summary of the story on folded and stapled pages.  Hopefully we'll have a large collection of little scritpure story books that the child has a relationship with.  We will also read from the scripture readers.


Friday - Scripture Snack Day:  Yes a snack, a treat of some kind that the kids get to eat as I tell the account from the scriptures in my own words, followed by a verbal testing of their understanding or application of principle discussed.  Sometimes the scripture snack (for my drama loving kids) will be re-enactment the story.  Sometimes it will be to play with some special toys during the story. 

We've only just begin this regime this week, but already our morning devotional is rich, filling, and spiritually satisfying.   So between evening family study and personally challenging  devotional, I'm hoping the scriptures will take on sweet personal meaning.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

A Dollar Well Spent




I love 'Les Miserables'. I love that my mother had a relationship with it. I love the story line and its depiction of the transformation of the soul. I love the movie and in concert. I would love to actually go see it in live concert with my husband and older children. And I'm planning to actually read the unabridged book (one of these days). I was shocked to find out that Victor Hugo was not part of the Great Books.


So when I saw the sheet music for 'Les Miserables' at the DI for only $1.00, I quickly grabbed it and put it in the cart. Granted, it was only treble cleff, and the notes were huge, but I didn't care - I don't play the piano anyway (even though I took lessons all throughout my childhood). I would love to have access to the words to all the songs. I knew Wilberforce wanted the real sheet music but it was the best I could do.



For the past three days, not only has Wilberforce been tinkering around on the piano, but Shakespeare, Austen, and even Hypatia have consistently been fine tuning their rendition of these simplified masterpieces. I've been loving it. Our house is full of music and singing.



So often I buy a super expensive book or curriculum hoping to inspire my children to fall in love with the subject - but true to form - it's my passion and relationship with the subject that has inspired them. It was a dollar very well spent.

School on the Moon



I don't know how many times we've driven straight past it in the last twenty plus years, but this time we stopped. I remember going to Craters of the Moon for a grade school field trip and although I didn't really get anything memorable out of the experience, I always assumed we'd stop there as a family so my home schooled kids could have the same experience. And since it was between my home and my extended family on the other side of the state, we had plenty of opportunities that we didn't have to plan a special excursion. But usually we were pressed for time to visit relatives and exhausted and eager to get home on the way back.
So this time on our way to family camp, I promised myself that we would stop on our way back. After all, my oldest daughter IS 19 years old - she's not getting any younger. Even though it was raining, and we were exhausted and filthy after four days of camping, I pulled into the visitors center. After using the restrooms, and browsing at a few displays in the corridor, we worked our way into the gift shop. BOOKS! All my kids found something they found interesting and explored to their hearts content. Eventually we continued walking into the rest of the visitor's center displays and watched a few documentaries, read several plaques, and pointed out things on the displays. As we learned the history of the site, my kids questioned the scientists calculations when the lava flowed based on the inconsistency with the scriptures or how it might compare with events in history (such as the earthquake that happened when Christ came to America). I was impressed as my children were well versed in much of the concepts, plants, and wildlife that were depicted, as they had a relationship with it.
Soon we were invited to listen to a ranger give a presentation regarding Craters of the Moon. I was able to listen for a short while before my two year old lost interest and wondered off. After this the kids asked to learn more by watching another documentary. By now, I was tired and wanted to get the rest of the journey behind me, so we decided to postpone going on the trail for another day when I wasn't carrying an infant and it wasn't raining.
I think it's impressive the stamina my children have for learning. I know that when I was a kid - I was so anxious to leave and what I did have to sit through - I tolerated because I did my duty. But my kids seem to actually enjoy learning this stuff. I love homeschooling.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Character Olympic Training

We've begun our efforts to conquer the giants within.  At the beginning of the week, I invited Washington to begin his Olympic training.  We went aside and discussed what parts of his character needed strengthened or if he would like to improve on his stewardships.  After listing several options, he chose the one he wanted to focus on first - Cheerfulness.  He has personally struggled with this skill all his life and so hopefully this is a vital behavior that will produce positive results elsewhere also.   We discussed how the natural man may resist being cheerful (slothful, lazy, looking for excuses, etc.)  and how Satan and his followers know this is a weak spot for him and will exploit it every chance they get.   Recognizing that this flaw was not all his own fault seemed to encourage him to engage in battle with greater ferocity. 

So each time he has an episode where he may not be responding in a cheerful manner, the training takes place.  The first offense is usually running around the house 10 times.  If he is persistent in feeling sorry for himself, he adds 10 more times. 

     The results have thus far been a greater patience on my part in helping him desire to choose cheerfulness.  I have a planned response and we both know his intentions are noble even if his carry through is behind.  My abilty to cheer him on in his efforts and recognize his victories has increased.  
      He is getting some desperately needed physical exercise as well as a few moments to distance himself from whatever triggered the poor response in the first place.   This allows him to reconsider how he chooses to respond. 

Thursday, July 14, 2011

SIMULATION / SHOPPING / SLEEPING / SWIMMING / & SO MUCH FUN - a weekend of firsts

The timing was right, the money was there - so we did it. 

Simulation
Aristotle called signaling it was time.  Galileo (me) had to pretend that it was a loud, instructive order from the priesthood to grab our 72 hours kits and evacuate in 10 minutes to meet him in Blackfoot.  Some of the kids were even in swimsuits - running through the sprinkler.  Shakespeare and Wilberforce were grabbing all kinds of items as I was trying to get the younger kids rounded up and getting out the grab-n-go lists for us to refer to as to what we needed.  I was impressed at the speed and clarity of thought that a few of the kids possessed.  The sad thing was I knew it was a simulation and I was running around in circles.  A few kids were panicked and Washington was going at a less than rushed pace, saying - 'I sure hope this is only a simulation'.  Eventually, we grabbed what we could within the 10 minutes and took off down the road.  On the hour drive, I explained that Papa couldn't tell me what was going on over the cell phone so we discussed what could possibly be wrong that would require us to evacuate when no one else was taking similar action as well as comparing our situation with similar scenarios in books.  When we picked up Aristotle, he was very serious (and a little impatient it took us so long) & told us to drive directly to the airport.  Once there, we all got out at the park across from the airport and debriefed and discussed what we can learn from this simulation.  You could see the relief sweep over Austen and Hypatia, and confirmed suspicions on the face of Washington, Wilberforce, and Shakespeare.  Joan of Arc and Enoch probably didn't think it any different from any time when we are trying to get out the door on time.  (Sad story - and we're more frequently late than on time).  As it turns out, we missed most of the extra items for Joan of Arc, Hypatia's 72 hour kit, sleeping bags, and all the food.  If we had done this mock disaster for a 3-day camp-out (as was originally the plan) we would have been very hungry campers.  But we did have ample water, socks and underwear, first aid kits, and towels.  I think it was a good thing to practice for an actual emergency as well as an observation how we respond during a crisis and what is truly important to grab. 

Shopping
Aristotle announced that we would be going to Lagoon from there and since most of the clothes we brought were a little too small - we were first going shopping for a new outfit.  We started with the youngest (excepting Enoch since we had enough for him) and bought new shorts, shirts, shoes, complete with sunhat.  Then we went to the next child on through to the parents.  By the time we finished finding what each family member wanted/needed we decided to not do the entire family at one time again - exhausting - but it truly was fun since most of our clothing come in the form of garbage bags that some angel of mercy gifted us as they cleaned out their closets. 

Sleeping
Some of my children have never experienced sleeping in a hotel and so the novelty of a TV and bathroom in the same room as their bed was quite a neat first.  Granted they got to share their bed with a sibling but for the older children, they got the room to themselves (attached to ours of course).  As is the case of most hotel visits, very little sleep actually occured, but the adrenaline from the excitement held us over.  The next morning, our family practically filled the lobby for the continental breakfast. 

Swimming
I know one is supposed to wait an hour after eating before swimming, but we were crunched for time, and since we didn't get to the hotel before the pool closed the night before, we went swimming immediately for about an hour and half.  Then we primped and got ready for a fun day at Lagoon.

So Much Fun
After stamping our hands with a bright flourescent ink - and getting our bearings in the amusement park, we entered the first ride.  My poor children have never even been to a state fair and except a trip to disney world over 12 years ago (my oldest child was only 6 years old), they have never experienced rides like this before.  So it was a good thing we started in kiddieland and the rides were not fear thrillers.  Gradually, we increased the magnitude of the rides and I was amused that Wilberforce was consistent at keeping her eyes snapped shut throughout the entire ride and the younger kids were eating it up.  She improved over time but it still was amusing.  Running from rollercoasters to centrifugal force rides to carousels to ferris wheels,  we went from ride to ride to ride.  The day was expiring faster than the ground coverage made - so it was agreed that we'd have to come again but instead schedule a 2-day trip.   The kids chose to ride 'Wicked' for their last ride and fortunatly it was my turn to stay with the baby cause I'm not sure I wanted to experience that extreme of a roller coaster.  Even Aristotle was taken aback by the instant zero gravity free fall (I think he really enjoyed the rush though). 

We ended the day by grabbing dinner to eat in the car, fueling up, and starting the long journey back home while being exhausted and full of memories.  On the trip down, we played games, laughed, and sweated (something is wrong with my vehicle and the A/C, windows, radio, cruise, & wipers aren't working).  On the trip home, we were quiet, cold (sun gone done and one window stuck open, one window stuck closed), and sleepy.  It was such a memorable trip and I'm so grateful we did it, even if the money could have been used for more practical uses such as pay bills.  It was the right thing to do and our family needed to feel that abundance and freedom in our life. 

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Growing Spiritually in the Spring

I've had a lot of events happen these last couple months that seem to be gearing me up for something, as I have felt closer and been filled with more desire to draw closer to the Lord than I have in a long time. 

Personal Progress
I've started working on my personal progress in earnest these last couple of months.  Every Sunday or during devotional personal study time, I work on it a little bit.  My 10 hour project will more likely be a lifetime project but other than that, I've completed all the FAITH requirements and have started DIVINE NATURE.  I'm hoping to encourage my girls to work on theirs without having to constantly remind them and hopefully I won't earn the medallion too much earlier than them. 

Revelation
I've loved my new tradition of reading the inspiring words of wisdom and progress on a few of the blogs that I'm following.  One theme that seems to be coming up frequently, is a greater awareness of the need for all, but woman in particular, to qualify for, receive, and respond to personal revelation.   Sister Julie B. Beck is quoted and pondered over repeatedly.  This has been a challenging area for me as I frequently see the Lord's interaction in the footprints behind me, but rarely recognize his guidance at the moment.  I'm happy to say that with concerted effort, prayer, and searching, I'm in the beginning stages of recognizing the Lord's intervention in my life at the moment that it happens.  Actually, I'm in awe at the amount of intervention I receive on a daily basis.  Now plans are being made on how to help my children recognize the Holy Ghost working in their own lives.

Service
I recently gave a lesson on the importance of giving service, and as most lessons, I got much more out of it than I'm sure anyone else has.  I have struggled with the ability to give service outside the walls of my home - money restraints, thoughtlessness, time constraints, unsure priorities, and just plain not in the habit of it.  So I've been making a concerted effort to do some type of service everyday.  Yes, I plan it on my to-do list.  I'm hoping with my prayers for opportunities, mixed with my attempts to heed promptings when they come and my best effort of seeking opportunities, that serving will become a strength and part of my nature.  But for right now, it takes a lot of work on my part.  Unfortunately, there are still a great many days that at the end of the day, the only thing I didn't get done was the service I had planned, but I do have some successes, and am confident that the Lord will change my nature if I'm persistent in my petitions. 

Passover/Easter
We were invited to join a friend for their celebration of the passover this year.  It was beautifully done and brought extra meaning to our own celebration of the Atonement when we partake of the sacrament.  I'm considering starting this tradition but still would like to create a family remembrance celebration with the restored gospel truths as the purpose.  We'll see what happens.  I had intentions of studying the last week of the Savior's life the week before Easter, but my intentions were swallowed up with urgencies and reactions.  And to make matters worse, I sunk into some type of depression because we were without funds to buy anything to put into the kids baskets.  I spent an entire day trying to brainstorm creative items to make to put in the baskets, but everything I could come up with still required some type of purchase.  So I shut down in regard to the holiday, and when my husband realized we didn't have any candy for the baskets, he spent $50 on junk easter candy that was supposed to go to a nobler cause.  By this time I didn't even care that he used our money foolishly, but I did feel a little guilty that I could have bought supplies to make something meaningful for a lot less money.  Hopefully next year will be more proactive regarding this holiday. 

Scripture Journals
One of my favorite inspirations I've received has been to begin a scripture journal.  In the past I've used notebooks or a loose leaf paper occasionally when I was clarifying something in my own mind.  I've also marked my scriptures or verbally discussed verses meaning.  But the transformation that has taken place from writing down the verse reference followed by a paraphrase of the principle/doctrine outlined and additional insights, thoughts, and questions has caused me to ponder the scriptures like never before.  I covered a composition notebook with fabric and it is exclusively for me to record my learning from my scripture study.  Whether this becomes a family keepsake/heirloom or just a tool for my own growth, I don't know but I am grateful for the sacred moments of pondering God's word and how it applies in my life.  I'm hoping to follow the suggestion and do it as a family so that I can teach my children to feast upon the word of God also.

Prayer Petitions
During Sacrament meeting, a speaker commented how we should emphasize a majority of our prayers in gratitude for answered prayers.  As I pondered this, I realized that I am not very effective at remembering what it was I prayed for and therefore was not expressing gratitude when my prayers were answered.  So I started taking my journal & pen with me when I prayed.  As I was communicating my desire, I would jot it down in my journal and over time have developed quite a long list.  The results have been surprising.  I not only can have a record of my requests so that I can immediately and frequently express gratitude but my petitions have been more consistent and the desire has worked in me as I ponder it more and deepen my dependence on the Lord.  Many times I review my list prior to praying (or during) and engage in a conversation with the Lord that is truely exersizing my faith more.  I am truely grateful. 

Approaching Zion
I watched a DVD called 'Celestial Education' that has opened my eyes a little wider to the purpose of my educating my children.  It explained the different levels of education as Telestial (compulsary, entertaining, minimum required - Star), Terestial (inspired, seeking truth, love learning - moon), and Celestial (Fulness of light and truth, guided by the spirit, mission driven - Sun).  I knew I had something with TJEd that was by far better than public school, but now I look forward to more fully incorporating the the Celestial Education into our schools so that we can be more effective instruments in building Zion, removing the curse, and fulfilling our pre-ordained missions. 
     When sharing this with my husband, we were also instructed by the bishop to look at 'another perspective' of family finances.  We only started the lessons but I'm so impressed at how it also put emphasis on our stewardship - versus ownership - to consecrate our earnings to the Lord.  I'm hoping as I study this more that it will help to change my heart to become the zion person the Lord needs me to be. 


Burdens Made Light
Unfortunately, Aristotle has been out of work for most of the spring, and as the wet weather continues, he still hasn't picked up a lot of sources of income.  This probably counts more as a blessing than a spiritual growth, but when I compare it to other times that we have been struggling financially, I can't help think that the Lord is helping us to grow, to be patient, and to exercise faith that he will provide for us.  Times have not been easy and we are doing without a lot of things.  I don't think I've made it into town for over a month.  But I have hardly noticed the hardships because it seems so insignificant compared to the blessings we've been experiencing.  I've also had an unusual amount of illnesses and incidents that I have put more trust in the Lord because of them.  A back ache because my back was out (couldn't even roll over or pick up my baby - let alone walk), pink eye (closed shut within 24 hours and very painful - and I might add very ugly), several colds and illnesses that spread throughout the family. 

Those are only a few of the highlights because as I grow closer to the Lord, it seems to affect and improve so many other areas of my life.  I'm truly loving the process and want to keep the growth happening.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

The Makings of March

With a new baby just arrived the day before (Feb 28th), March was filled with busy activities as well as precious moments of snuggles and quiet ponderings.  The first week of Enoch's life, I had the luxury of spending at home as we adjusted to his physical body mechanics (learning to nurse, sleep patterns, adjustments to the rest of the family and Joan of Arc's advancement from being the baby).  Fortunately, we have such good neighbors to volunteer to take Shakespeare to see the play A Tale of Two Cities at the Hale Center Theater on March 1st with the rest of her class.  She loved it, of course and couldn't decide what was the more exciting conversation piece - the play or having a new brother.  Fortunatelty. Aristotle was able to stay home for a couple days to take care and chauffer the other kids, while I got to spend some bonding time with baby Enoch. 

Isn't he Precious!

On the 9th of March, Washington turned 11 years old - and we finished the last requirement for the last Webelos pin on his birthday.  On this busy day was a lot of firsts for Baby Enoch.  Our first day back to iFAMILY, first time shopping & running errands, first time to visit Grandma (She says he's the cutest baby she's ever seen - I think she meant since the last one).

On that Friday, March 11, we spent the day helping a friend finish a quilt for their daughter's wedding.  After 50 + hours of driving, Shakespeare passed the tests and received her driver's license. That was a major goal and accomplishment that she had been working on.  She also earned her personal progress award this month.  Also, Washington was able to finally ride in Aristotle's big truck on an asphalt delivery.  He just loves spending time with his Papa so it was a highlight adventure.

March 14th brought about Shakespeare's 16th birthday.  After Seminary, we went shopping for her gifts (because I hadn't gotten around to it before) and although it wasn't for her birthday, we came home with a family gift (that's what Aristotle called it).  We bought an X-box with Kinect with the requirement to the kids to exercise everyday for an hour - and they could count Kinect.  I never thought I'd ever allow a video game in my home but when it encourages physical activity, even I don't mind playing it myself. 

The next day our big pig got out of the pen while my older kids were gone to mutual and again, our amazing neighbors came to my rescue.  Some even coming so far as from Rigby to chase it down for me.  I am so grateful to have friends who come to my rescue when I need them.  I guess it happened again while we were in town a couple days later and was brought back again by our neighbors.  Needless to say, Aristotle shot the pig and now our freezer is full - with a new, stronger pig pen in the works. 

The following day, March 16th, we spent the day at iFAMILY again and visited Grandma to make sure she ate and took her medication again.  Afterwards we stopped at our cousins, while I ran to the store.  After I finished picking up some groceries, I put Enoch and Joan of Arc in the van and quickly shut the door to hurry home.  Immediately, I realized I shut the door too soon for her to have time to remove her hand.  Her poor little hand was shut in the sliding van door!  I felt sick as I looked at the expression of pain and shock come across her face.  I tried to desperately open the door but it was jammed and I couldn't relieve her pain.  You know those times when panicking makes things worse - well, I was about as panicked as I could be - screaming, crying, hitting the door trying to unjam it, calling everyone for help.  I still get sick thinking of the pain I caused my sweet little two year old baby. 

The police came, the QRU came, an ambulance was on the way, my brother & sister-in-law came, and fortunately, even Aristotle was close enough in his run to come.  The police got a crow bar & pried the door open just enough to release her hand.  Amazingly enough, even though her little fingers were smashed flat as a pancake, nothing was broken.  Definately not an experience I want to repeat.

Sometime during the month, Washington got a haircut.


Aristotle had some fun doing it too.  Finally, he cut the rest off.

On March 19th,  we had our monthly family party.  The theme was an Unbirthday party.  When I originally planned the theme, I was thinking that since I would have a new baby and three birthdays in the month of March, that having one big party with friends, cake & Ice cream would be sufficient.  But of course, each birthday had it's own cake and treats.  The unbirthday party was fun but not many of the guests were able to come so it was lacking the numbers needed for some of the activities.  I had a nice visit with the friends that came though. 

The next day, Hypatia gave a talk on 'the first vision' and I gave my Relief Society lesson on 'Service'.  It was one of those lessons where I had a lot of room for improvement, so I got far more out of it than I'm sure anyone else did.  I'm still reflecting on the subject in an effort to improve. 

Monday some friends came over and helped us butcher, grind, & wrap our slaughtered pig.  I got to visit with my friend and hold the baby while the dad's and kids did all the work. 

March 23rd, Washington received his Arrow of Light Award along with the remainder of the Webelos pins & the 20 pins patch.  He set that goal and we actually made it. The same day, Hypatia didn't get to go to iFAMILY or Pack mtg because she got a fairly bad case of pink eye from the friends that helped us with the pig.  She didn't like having to stay home when fun things were going on. 

I felt impressed to improve on several areas of life this month (something about a new baby and bigger projects - go figure).  I've felt a strong desire and, believe it or not, ability to eat healthier  - for the entire family too.  In fact, I even made a commitment to NOT EVEN ONCE eat refined sugars.  I've been loving how much better I feel and the empowerment of healthier food choices.  I've also been working on finding the balance in my life between self-reliance and serving my fellowmen (inspired by my RS lesson).  I'm amazed at how little I actually do for others outside of my family and am attempting to remedy that -- I know, seasons, but it has been an eye-opener.  I've also felt impressed to be more valiant at keeping the Sabbath day holy.  I put together a Sabbath basket with all those activities that we're supposed to work on but never get around to because my Sabbath was always occupied with naps and planning.  Like Family History, letter writing, Personal Progress & Faith in God programs, faith promoting stories, etc.  It's been interesting how different the Sabbaths have felt since focusing on making it an extra special day. 

We went to a friend's open house, followed by dropping Hypatia off to go with Aristotle on another delivery.  It's becoming quite the papa/child date.  Aristotle's birthday came and went on March 27th.  I think he even had to go work. 

Then, in March we decided to start a family blog so the kids could publish their papers and have some type of accountability for their schoolwork.  Austen was especially happy because she has been wanting one for quite some time now.  We decided on the same name as the newspaper we started after reading 'Little Women'.  We're attempting to figure out how to operate the blog, how to download pictures and how to get in the habit of recording our life experiences on a fairly regular basis.  Overall it has been a fun and busy month.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Return and Report - 4/5

Galileo - Preflight, Devotional, Passport (Netherlands), Math Adventure Box (War), Language Arts Adventure Box (read patriarchal blessings for Grandparents), Submitted Advertisements to Media Resources for iShakespeareLive, Nap, held a sick baby, blog, washed dishes, sewed costume for play.

Shakespeare - PAC, made angel food cake, Devotional, took papa to the doctor, Shakespeare practice, made another angel food cake, Young Women

Austen - PAC, wrote paper for 'Key of Liberty' and posted on blog, Devotional, Passport (Netherlands), Vocabulary for George Washington's Farewell address, played math games & history games on the internet, finished article two and half of article three in the Constitution journal, Young Women.

Washington - PAC, wrote paper about self and posted on blog, Devotional, Passport (Netherlands), played war (Times style with mommy, Plus style with Hypatia), played math games on the internet, entered names on pedigree chart, read from Squanto, looked up French and Indian War on youtube and watched several documentaries on it, began watching 'Geronimo'.

Hypatia - PAC, Devotional, Passport (Netherlands), played war (plus style with Washington and mommy), played math games on the internet, entered names on Pedigree chart, began another thank-you card for teacher.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Return and Report 4/4

Galileo - I searched Journal of Discourses vol. 2 for insights on tithing.  PAC (pre-flight, animals, chores) Devotional (also introduced blog pseudonyms, bios, & daily reports), put together adventure boxes.  Finalized blog intro page. Figured out how Galileo determined the formulas for the relationship between time and velocity & distance. Visited with Wilberforce. Read from 'The other Side of the Mountain".  Blogged some more.  Took care of baby Enoch. Circle the wagons.  Family reading.

Shakespeare - I worked on my constitution journal.  Galileo experimentation.  I also worked on my father's finances (since I'm now his secretary). Made dinner.  Exercised. Family Reading.

Austen -  Galileo Experimentation.  George Washington's farewell address vocabulary - 5 words.  Constitution journal (one section).  Art practice - cougar.  Exercise.  Family Reading.

Washington -  Galileo experimentation. Wrote list of qualities admired in a person.   Read 'Squanto'.  Exercised.  Helped Aristotle fix a pigpen. Hauled 5 metal beams (for pigpen)  Family Reading.

Hypatia - Galileo experimentation.  Wrote a thank-you card to teacher. Family Reading.  Exercised.